I donno whether i can carry on with this anymore... I dont feel happy. I feel like giving up. what am I still holding on to? I guess I am not suitable to get into relationships... I thought I've learnt my lesson well enough, never to make the same mistake again. but I was wrong. is she the right one? or am I just hoping for her to be the right one for me? what she say and what she do doesnt match at all. confused and curious, but I cant ask why. its too arkward. probably will lead to a fight. she isnt what I imagine her to be. day by day, the disappointment grow. when will she understand how I feel? she never will...